I can't believe that it has been weeks since I have written anything. Time flies when you are busy doing tons of stuff.

Sigh, I have fallen into bad habits again and I hate it. I have been downing all sorts of horrible food and then I'll have one good balanced meal and then dive into the next bad thing. It is so exhausting trying to fight addiction to food everyday. And why did I fall back into this bottomless pit of food hell? Because of my biggest 'flaw'--I let outside, negative influences into my life. I have zero defense when it comes to certain people or topics--no matter what, their ideals or just negative presence seeps into my life and throws me off kilter. I'm spiraling out of control with a donut in my hand, running to the scale to see how much weight I've put back on. Folks, it is a horrible way to live. I really need to learn to build up my defenses, say F-YOU to these cancerous feelings and live my life in the most productive & healthy way I can.

So, I am going to take this weekend, purge all that negativity from my life, and do a week of carb deplete beginning on Monday.
Please avoid me at all costs until that week is over--this is for your own protection.