The Mad Happenings of a Glass Princess

Thank you Jodie for updating my blog 'look'!

I hit the gym today! I can't believe it. I had to dust off my gym card so they could scan it. LOL.

I felt really good after going, I need to do that more often.


Jodie came over and we worked in the studio for a while, she designed some pendants and I worked on my strip plate, I really want to finish that up this weekend. I'll post some pictures when I do.

Oh! and how do I manage to get up out of bed some days and function? Sometimes I wonder where my head is. So, I have this huge gash in one of my cabinet doors, I look at it every morning and every night and it drives me nuts. I hate how it looks. So tonight I was looking at it again and thinking about the handles that I'm going to put on this weekend, and it hit me! Just switch cabinet doors with the far one, and turn it upside down (they are opposite sides of the cabinet)--DUH! And so I grabbed the foot stool, and the cordless screw driver and vola! I'm not staring at a gash in my door any more--and I didn't think of this 11.5 months ago when I moved in!?!? So I say again, how do I function some days? LOL.

For the last couple of weeks, I've been having these mini conversations in my head with my mom. Yes, we all know I'm crazy, but I hope I haven't really gone over the deep end. I've been feeling a little icky lately and I've been having these 'talks' as I'm falling asleep or waking up. I usually get sad when I have dreams of my mom, but these talks have been good. Here is a glimpse...

Mom: Nicole, can you believe you are going to be WORKING FOR NASA!?! Not just AT NASA, but FOR them.
Nicole: No, I can't believe it, I never thought it would happen.
Mom: Have you called your aunt and uncle and told them?
Nicole: No, not yet
Mom: Don't you think you should. And tell them you moved too, I don't think they know that either.
Nicole: Yes mom.

Mom: Can you believe how big Kelli is? I know she broke your heart honey; you know you and your sister did the same thing to your dad...
Nicole: Yes, I know. And I now know exactly what dad always meant by it.
Mom: She still loves you.
Nicole: I know she does.

Mom: Samson is crazy
Nicole: I know, isn't it funny
Mom: Yes

Mom: Have you picked your new insurance yet
Nicole: No
Mom: Don't you think you need to do that. NICOLE! you should have had that in weeks ago.
Nicole: I have time mom
Mom: Why do you ALWAYS wait until the last minute

Mom: how is your pregnant friend
Nicole: Which one, there are many of them
Mom: oh, I don't know. all of them.

Nicole: Mom, do I make you proud?
Mom: Everyday

I feel like I'm at a huge crossroad in my life with the new job and I just want to speak with her and just talk about everything and nothing. I have been thinking of the stupid things in life that she is missing out on. Like a DVR, she would have LOVED the DVR. It would be filled with all of her soaps. A cell phone, she would have loved showing pictures on it. The kids, she would do anything for those 3.
Okay, I'm crying. And I'm getting all snotty, so I'm calling it a night.

I guess my post last night caused some controversy. I never meant to; to be honest, it was my laziness that caused the post to be so short. While I was getting ready for bed last night I was thinking if I had done something in the past (this life or another) that karma was coming back and getting me for. I was really tired and I wanted to blog, but I also wanted to go to bed, so I just threw that question out there and hit my pillow. So here is the story...

I'm having my quarterly pity party and I just wondered if I was being taught some cosmic lesson -- that the two things that I can't achieve is losing weight and being in love. I am seeing the rest of my single friends fall in love (not many of us left) and I'm getting sad. I kinda feel as if I'm the last one picked for a team in jr. high. I'm getting all nervous just thinking about it. I have visions in my head of everyone on one side of the play ground and they are pointing at me laughing cause I'm standing alone, the odd (wo)man out.

I just wish I had someone to do even the mundane tasks of life with -- have a dinner conversation, wash dishes, walk the dogs, work on the yard, wash the car, fold clothes, etc. Just to have a companion in life. There are nights I come home from work and I find myself extremely lonely and it sucks.

So my friends, that was it, that is what I was thinking about when I asked about karma. I hope I'm a good person and don't have some bad mojo following me.

Just like every other night, I'm very tired, so I'm going to end it here, but I have so many topics that are floating around in my head:
-top annoyances
-my new job vs. food
-creative fear
-my dogs rock
-christmas with my dad
stay tuned...

Do you believe in karma? I do.

The amber alert for Mr. Marbles has been canceled.
In a late night sting by the male members of the house, Mr. Marbles was caught trying to return to his cage in hopes of finding food. Although we have not had a comment from Mr. Marbles' owner, I'm sure Ms. Kelli is very happy to have her rodent back. An investigation as to how the daring escape happened is now underway and will be reported once the official report is made.

News Alert!
Mr. Marbles, the hamster belonging to Ms. Kelli, is missing somewhere in the house. At this time, authorities do not know how he was able to escape, but droppings related to Mr. Marbles were found in various locations around the house. If you see Mr. Marbles, do not approach him, call for backup and prepare for the full on assault by all members of the house to catch him. Going to the bathroom is recommended before approaching Mr. Marbles, uncontrollable laughter that might lead to pee pee accidents is a possibility as members of the family try to catch the fugitive rodent. Updates will be posted when news arrives...

Could you hear me screaming? I bet you could if you listened hard enough. I was screaming in pure frustration at my food addiction. For 35 years and a couple of weeks I've been fighting this thing and I hate it. I was doing so well, and then the hurricane and then and then and then--just all excuses. It is amazing the cycle I can find myself in; I can think about high school and college and early in my career and I can see the same patterns. I'm sitting on my bed just blogging away and I'm just shaking my head thinking of all the things that I've done wrong over the last few weeks. Last night I had dinner at Carolyn's and she introduced me to her neighbor. She was talking about how she was going to the 1/2 in SA this weekend. That just made me feel even worse since that was another goal I pissed away.

Okay, enough looking into the past. I need to look forward and take one moment at time.


I need to give a few shout outs to people and an awesome dog. Congrats to Sandy who came in 5th place in Viv's latest challenge. Yay you! Keep up the good work.

I mentioned earlier that I had dinner at Carolyn's. Well, she had a few dog people over and Brody met 3 new dogs. He was on his best behavior (we had a talk before we went--LOL). I was very, very proud of him. No growling, no curled lips, nada, nothing! He played very well, and when he was tired, he went off and laid by himself and didn't bother anyone else. I think I might over done my praise (if that is possible) cause he is super lovey with me. Tonight he curled up with me on the couch and he got an hour long belly rub and now he is on the bed with me as I blog. Just as I think he knows that I rescued him as a puppy, he also knows how much I was hurting when he bit that other dog. That options that were not in his favor were being thought about. I'm really glad I fought for him and decided to give him a quiet, stress free life with me. A young couple came to buy my old couch this weekend, they said it was okay if I let the dogs out. In the past, I would have let them say hello, but now I just told them that they were okay in the backyard and just kept going on with the sale. I don't need everyone to love Brody as much I as I love him and he is fine just looking at things from a distance. He is my first born and we'll be just fine with it being the two of us (and with Sammy).

I'm trying to fight this cold off, so I'm going to bed early. Sweet dreams friends. Love ya all!

I recieved my 'contract' with NASA today. Ohmygosh to see it all in writing is very scary; it has my start date, my salary, vacation agreements, etc. It is real. 05Jan09 is THE date.
I'm very excited about doing something new. Most of you know that I'm a big chicken shit & a creature of habit, so for me to really pick up and leave the comfort of Bld 35 and my safe zone is a huge leap for me. More than half my day is now spent working on the new project and I learn more each day and enjoy meeting new people. Doing this project reminds me of my job ~11 years ago, when I was developing new ideas for how Station was going to work. And that all came together earlier this year when the international partners joined in and I saw my ideas and hard work flowing from country to country & then to onboard. It was a amazing. The thought of seeing these ideas that I am coming up with today fly to the moon and mars is getting me excited again about work.
I just wrote a letter to two of my programmers that I've worked with for the last 7+ years; they are great programmers and even more important great people; I began to tear up as I wrote them a note explaining where I was going. I also tear up at the thought of not seeing my posse of gals in the office everyday. Most of the time we communicate via IM, but every now and again we'll meet in an office and get detail of a story that IM just can't get across. I think I will miss the one girl, who at one time I didn't want to share an office with, the most for my day to day activities. I love how I can look past my monitor and say a quick word to Sandy and then keep going with my stuff.
I'm going to end this post here, I'm tearing up again...

How is it possibly Nov 2!!! It is incredible to think how fast this year went by. I always wondered what 'adults' meant when they say they years pass quicker the older you get--I now know.